Posts Tagged ‘recovery’
When You Miss The Anticipation of The Drink
When you quit drinking, the world doesn’t quit drinking with you. That’s the first hard lesson that I learned over 2 years ago, and it’s a lesson that I still have to remember sometimes. When I first got sober, I often missed the anticipation of the first drink. When I drank, I was always looking…
Read MoreTackling My Addiction to Social Media
“Taking a break” from social media isn’t nearly as intense as it is from drugs or alcohol, but it’s still not easy for me. A lot has been written about the advantages and disadvantages of social media, by people much smarter and more educated than myself. I’m not going to get into the statistics and…
Read MoreHow I Stayed Sober for The First 30 Days
May 5, 2015 was the last day I drank alcohol. I don’t always remember a lot of specifics from my recovery journey, but I do remember the first 30 days. I did a lot of things that I didn’t feel like doing in order to make it through the first 30 days of sobriety. Everything…
Read MoreWe Will Not Regret The Past – Really
“We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.” Even as my eyes struggled to open, waves of regret would start crashing against my entire body. Oh, my God. Ugh. Ugh ugh uggghh. Shame and regret were so familiar to me, I didn’t even recognize them as emotions separate from…
Read MoreMy (Not) Drinking Diary for A Girl & Tonic
Laurie at A Girl & Tonic asked me awhile ago if I would be interested in contributing to her (Not) Drinking Diary series, and to tell the truth, I was stoked. She’s one of the first people I stalked followed when I first started writing more publicly about sobriety. Her writing on her blog and…
Read More4 Stages of an Epic Martyr’s Meltdown
There will be gifs in this post because gifs make me smile, and we could all use more smiles. When my kids don’t want to clean up or do something else I’ve asked them to do, they act helpless. They wait until the last minute, pick up dishes sloppily, load them badly, barely make the…
Read MoreWhat To Do When Sobriety Gets Boring?
“I know how stupid this sounds, but honestly I’m just BORED.” It was a muggy summer evening. I was in a little white church with a bunch of other drunks, with no idea what to do with my hands. There was a dangerous lump rising in my throat, threatening to bring tears with it. I…
Read MoreGetting Sober: My First 30 Days
When you forget what life was like “before”, things can get a little shaky. Thankfully I journal, and it helps me remember. I made the active decision to quit drinking 4-6 days after I’d had my last drink. Now, I’m going to share a few writings from my first 30 days. -Related post: How I Stayed…
Read MoreStaying Sober For The Ones Who Suffer
Years ago, a friend of mine shared out of the blue that she quit drinking. She joined AA and started writing about it. At the time, I was still drinking and joking about the frequency like any other overwhelmed mom (I thought). I never knew anybody in my life who quit drinking. You either drank or…
Read More22 Months of Sobriety, One Day At a Time
I’m 22 months sober today. Woot woot! *confetti* Top – taken within the past 30 days. Sober, silly, grateful. Bottom left – 2013. Bottom right – 2010. Blacked out in both. Miserable. I have thoughts. This won’t be very structured writing, I’m letting it flow freely and disjointedly. First thought is, do you have any…
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