Posts Tagged ‘recovery’
14 Things I Believe About Myself and My Alcoholism
There was a time when I thought my opinion was gold, that I should tell everybody my thoughts and stances on everything all the time. That ship has mostly sailed, but sometimes it’s nice to know where somebody is coming from and the belief systems that govern their world. With that in mind, I have…
Read MoreEmbracing My Inner Pollyanna
When I was younger, a few people mocked me for being too positive. I was too much of a Pollyanna, it was nauseating and I was naive. Or at least that’s what I was told. I don’t know why it affected me the way it did. None of those people are still in my life,…
Read MoreWe Don’t Need No Expectations
“Hey! Anxiety! Leave my brain alone!…” Alright, alright. Anyway. Expectations are tricky. On one hand, it’s important to have standards and boundaries. Not just important, but necessary. It turns out that standards and boundaries aren’t at all the same thing as expectations, though. I used to drive myself crazy playing out entire conversations in my…
Read More“A Star Is Born” Scared Me A Little Bit
******SPOILER ALERT WARNING****** Sometimes, I like to go to the movies by myself. It’s rare. Just going to the theater in the first place is pretty rare for me. It’s hard for me to sit still that long, my mind always racing to the work I should be doing, errands I should be…
Read MoreWriting Away Anger
It’s been a tough week. I don’t even know why, to be honest. Everything is normal. Nothing crazy is happening. Maybe it’s just the season, or the heat, or whatever. I could sit here and feel sorry for myself (and I do that, plenty). It’s really tempting. Let me just sit and mull over how…
Read MoreThe Darker Side of Sharing My Story
“Your story is powerful.” Share your story. Put yourself out there. Be authentic. Be real. None of this is necessarily wrong, but I’ve seen some downsides since I wrote about sharing your story, and it’s been on my mind lately. I write this, knowing full well it’s hypocritical as hell. It’s also purely me writing…
Read MoreA Woman of Extremes
From my private journal, May 10, 2015: “This is the first time that I felt even mildly confident that I could quit, the first time in a long time that I truly feel I’ve just had enough. I’m just done. Any other promises to quit were met with screaming voices in my head. Now, I…
Read MoreHow I Stay Sober Through The Holidays
Yep. It’s that time of year. Look, let’s be real. I’m an alcoholic. Every time of the year could be a difficult time to stay sober, if I’m being honest. It doesn’t have to be, but temptation doesn’t discriminate. Even if you don’t identify as an alcoholic, those of us who choose to get and…
Read More3 Ways I Focus on Solutions, Not Problems
The kids won’t go to sleep. The neighbor’s dog won’t stop barking. The HOA fees are due and I’m broke. The IRS won’t leave me alone. My child is sick. The hot water heater broke. That person won’t just do the right thing. Ugh, what a day. Mommy needs to unwind. Pop, pour, sip, gulp,…
Read MoreIt’s Ok To Get Tired of Recovery – I Hope
It gets kind of old talking about recovery sometimes. I should be cured, you know? Why do I have to think about sobriety and recovery and one day at a time and let go and let God and serenity and surrender so. damn. much? Why does sobriety feel like so much sometimes? I don’t often…
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