Navigating life as a woman & mom in recovery, one day at a time.

Posts Tagged ‘growth’

We Don’t Need No Expectations

be still and know that I am God - managing expectations in sobriety

“Hey! Anxiety! Leave my brain alone!…” Alright, alright. Anyway. Expectations are tricky. On one hand, it’s important to have standards and boundaries. Not just important, but necessary. It turns out that standards and boundaries aren’t at all the same thing as expectations, though. I used to drive myself crazy playing out entire conversations in my…

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The Darker Side of Sharing My Story

the darker side of sharing my sobriety story; bloominash

“Your story is powerful.” Share your story. Put yourself out there. Be authentic. Be real. None of this is necessarily wrong, but I’ve seen some downsides since I wrote about sharing your story, and it’s been on my mind lately. I write this, knowing full well it’s hypocritical as hell. It’s also purely me writing…

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A Woman of Extremes

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From my private journal, May 10, 2015: “This is the first time that I felt even mildly confident that I could quit, the first time in a long time that I truly feel I’ve just had enough. I’m just done. Any other promises to quit were met with screaming voices in my head. Now, I…

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Defying The Voice

I want to write. “What’s the point?” Hush. My words matter. My story matters. Doesn’t it? You’re a narcissist. Self-absorbed. Other people don’t have to celebrate making it through life without getting drunk. Other people just deal with their problems quietly, they don’t have to bleed out all over the internet to validate themselves. Do…

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No More Excuses: A Reminder to Put In The Work

put forth your best effort, and teach your children to do the same

“Do as I say, not as I do.” I had an epiphany last night. My 9 year old daughter and I had a serious talk about her grades, and the amount of effort she’s been putting into her schoolwork. She’s creative and intelligent, but also not necessarily motivated by “good grades”. Rather than ask for help…

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It’s Ok To Just Keep Showing Up This Year

just keep showing up

It’s a new year as I write this post. 2018. Somehow, it feels like just another day. Maybe because it is just another day, hm? My biggest achievement in 2017 is that I stayed sober for each of the past 365 days. I’m not one to knock New Year’s resolutions or goals. Anything that kickstarts…

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I Stopped Apologizing For Not Wearing Makeup

I won't apologize for not wearing makeup anymore

“Sorry I’m not wearing makeup, it’s been one of those days.” I’m somewhat embarrassed that it’s taken me this long to stop apologizing for my face. The last few times I apologized for wearing makeup, it was primarily to men, and I remember them looking mildly awkward about it. Not awkward that I was without…

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When You Miss The Anticipation of The Drink

When you quit drinking, the world doesn’t quit drinking with you. That’s the first hard lesson that I learned over 2 years ago, and it’s a lesson that I still have to remember sometimes. When I first got sober, I often missed the anticipation of the first drink. When I drank, I was always looking…

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Tackling My Addiction to Social Media

“Taking a break” from social media isn’t nearly as intense as it is from drugs or alcohol, but it’s still not easy for me. A lot has been written about the advantages and disadvantages of social media, by people much smarter and more educated than myself. I’m not going to get into the statistics and…

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How I Stayed Sober for The First 30 Days

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May 5, 2015 was the last day I drank alcohol. I don’t always remember a lot of specifics from my recovery journey, but I do remember the first 30 days. I did a lot of things that I didn’t feel like doing in order to make it through the first 30 days of sobriety. Everything…

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