My Journey From Shame to Sobriety

This is an excerpt from a post that I wrote for the wonderful Holl & Lane magazine in May 2017.

“My journey to sobriety has been twisted, stubborn, and miraculous.

Once upon a time, I could take a drink or leave it. Sometimes, I try to remember what may have flipped that switch. It’s almost impossible to determine, but I still try. Somewhere in my brain, I think that if I can just figure out what made me like this, maybe, just maybe, I can reverse it.

Thankfully, most of my brain knows better.

I was a scared little girl pretending to be a grown-up. Alcohol became the primary vehicle I used to race ahead of the emotions stemming from trauma, abuse, my mistakes, and really, just life. The more I drank, the more it felt like I was racing along the edge of a cliff.”

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