Navigating life as a woman & mom in recovery, one day at a time.

Recovery

Embracing My Inner Pollyanna

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When I was younger, a few people mocked me for being too positive. I was too much of a Pollyanna, it was nauseating and I was naive. Or at least that’s what I was told. I don’t know why it affected me the way it did. None of those people are still in my life,…

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We Don’t Need No Expectations

be still and know that I am God - managing expectations in sobriety

“Hey! Anxiety! Leave my brain alone!…” Alright, alright. Anyway. Expectations are tricky. On one hand, it’s important to have standards and boundaries. Not just important, but necessary. It turns out that standards and boundaries aren’t at all the same thing as expectations, though. I used to drive myself crazy playing out entire conversations in my…

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“A Star Is Born” Scared Me A Little Bit

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  ******SPOILER ALERT WARNING******   Sometimes, I like to go to the movies by myself. It’s rare. Just going to the theater in the first place is pretty rare for me. It’s hard for me to sit still that long, my mind always racing to the work I should be doing, errands I should be…

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Guest Post: My Daughter Is a Drug Addict

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This is a guest post from my husband. It’s been a rough year, and he wanted to write and share this. Beyond some simple formatting, I didn’t edit it. This is his story, not mine, to tell. Currently, his daughter is clean and in recovery. We continue to take life one day at a time.…

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The Darker Side of Sharing My Story

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“Your story is powerful.” Share your story. Put yourself out there. Be authentic. Be real. None of this is necessarily wrong, but I’ve seen some downsides since I wrote about sharing your story, and it’s been on my mind lately. I write this, knowing full well it’s hypocritical as hell. It’s also purely me writing…

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Let’s Absolutely Insist On Enjoying Life

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Recovery is not all sunshine and rainbows. But there are sunshine and rainbows. Earlier this week, I watched Remember the Titans with my daughters. It’s one of my favorite movies, and they had never seen it. I laughed and cried like it was the first time to watch it (my girls thought I was a little…

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A Woman of Extremes

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From my private journal, May 10, 2015: “This is the first time that I felt even mildly confident that I could quit, the first time in a long time that I truly feel I’ve just had enough. I’m just done. Any other promises to quit were met with screaming voices in my head. Now, I…

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A Sober Birthday: 32 Life Lessons

Birthdays feel a lot different as I get older. It’s just another day, really. Not because I’m depressed about aging or anything, but the celebratory nature of it just isn’t there. I wish I was one of those people who could make everything a party. Every holiday, every birthday, every accomplishment and milestone becomes something…

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Defying The Voice

I want to write. “What’s the point?” Hush. My words matter. My story matters. Doesn’t it? You’re a narcissist. Self-absorbed. Other people don’t have to celebrate making it through life without getting drunk. Other people just deal with their problems quietly, they don’t have to bleed out all over the internet to validate themselves. Do…

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