“I was a late bloomer. But anyone who blooms at all, ever, is very lucky. ”
- Sharon Olds
I’m Still Here
It’s been a few years, eh? 2020 was a doozy for everyone, and I was no exception. I’m here, I’m alive, I’m ok. Unfortunately, I don’t have the same sobriety…
Food: The Never Ending Struggle
It’s 4:26am, and my coffee tastes delicious. I’m not stoked about being awake this early, but if I must be, at least I can enjoy some good coffee. We are…
Fly Through the Fiery Sky
Fly through the fiery sky Alive with fear Grasping at stars Burning with hope The seasons of shame Forever wax and wane Fear and trust balancing On the edge of…
Drunk Me Is Not The Real Me
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard people say things like, “Whatever you say drunk is what you really want to say when you’re sober,” or “Drunk you…
Raising Daughters and Turning 33
I’ll be 33 years old tomorrow. When you’re an adult, the milestone birthdays are mostly decades. Your 30’s, 40’s, 50’s, and so on. The middle numbers aren’t quite as Big…
Small Acts of Defiance
Why get better? What’s the point? Apathy offers to numb everything for me. I crave it, I don’t want to give a shit about anything. It’s much easier to function…
Embracing My Inner Pollyanna
When I was younger, a few people mocked me for being too positive. I was too much of a Pollyanna, it was nauseating and I was naive. Or at least…
We Don’t Need No Expectations
“Hey! Anxiety! Leave my brain alone!…” Alright, alright. Anyway. Expectations are tricky. On one hand, it’s important to have standards and boundaries. Not just important, but necessary. It turns out…
3 Simple Habits That Are Changing My Life
The way we build and break habits endlessly fascinates me. When I read The Power of Habit last year, something shifted. I stopped worrying that a fleeting (and sometimes not…
“A Star Is Born” Scared Me A Little Bit
******SPOILER ALERT WARNING****** Sometimes, I like to go to the movies by myself. It’s rare. Just going to the theater in the first place is pretty rare for…
How I’m Tackling Weight Loss and Food Addiction in Recovery
I rarely do trigger warnings (mainly because my entire blog is probably one big trigger), but this post will deal specifically with weight, eating disorders, etc. Heads up if you’re…
Writing Away Anger
It’s been a tough week. I don’t even know why, to be honest. Everything is normal. Nothing crazy is happening. Maybe it’s just the season, or the heat, or whatever.…