Navigating life as a woman & mom in recovery, one day at a time.

Posts by Ashley Ann

Going Quiet In A Noisy World

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I’ve been off social media for about a week now. There’s nothing new or groundbreaking about taking a break from particular apps. I’ve done it a few times, many others have done it, especially during Lent or for New Year’s Resolutions and the like. This time though, it feels different somehow. I honestly don’t miss…

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Fly Through the Fiery Sky

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Fly through the fiery sky Alive with fear Grasping at stars Burning with hope The seasons of shame Forever wax and wane Fear and trust balancing On the edge of your sanity Darkness pulls from below Light beckons from above Spread your wings And fly through the fiery sky -bloominash (aka me) I don’t have…

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Drunk Me Is Not The Real Me

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I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard people say things like, “Whatever you say drunk is what you really want to say when you’re sober,” or “Drunk you only does what sober you wants to do.” This may be true for some people, but I’m going to go ahead and call BS on…

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Raising Daughters and Turning 33

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I’ll be 33 years old tomorrow. When you’re an adult, the milestone birthdays are mostly decades. Your 30’s, 40’s, 50’s, and so on. The middle numbers aren’t quite as Big to most people. Last month, I had an abnormal pap smear for the first time ever. Yesterday, I had outpatient surgery to remove the culprit(s).…

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Small Acts of Defiance

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Why get better? What’s the point? Apathy offers to numb everything for me. I crave it, I don’t want to give a shit about anything. It’s much easier to function in this world that way. If I don’t think too much about anything, I can coast without any real emotions. Emotions are unpredictable, and they…

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Embracing My Inner Pollyanna

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When I was younger, a few people mocked me for being too positive. I was too much of a Pollyanna, it was nauseating and I was naive. Or at least that’s what I was told. I don’t know why it affected me the way it did. None of those people are still in my life,…

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We Don’t Need No Expectations

be still and know that I am God - managing expectations in sobriety

“Hey! Anxiety! Leave my brain alone!…” Alright, alright. Anyway. Expectations are tricky. On one hand, it’s important to have standards and boundaries. Not just important, but necessary. It turns out that standards and boundaries aren’t at all the same thing as expectations, though. I used to drive myself crazy playing out entire conversations in my…

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3 Simple Habits That Are Changing My Life

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The way we build and break habits endlessly fascinates me. When I read The Power of Habit last year, something shifted. I stopped worrying that a fleeting (and sometimes not so fleeting) desire for a drink would turn into an actual drink. This book helped me to pay more attention to what my brain was…

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